Worries

I am really beginning to appreciate that pregnancy is a rather long journey full of worries.

While trying to conceive, we were worried if both of us were healthy and whether the egg will fertilise and clinch on to the uterus. Next we have to be extremely careful during this 1st trimester. Every little symptom will cause us to worry as you read in my earlier post, Scare.

Now that we are coming to the end of our 1st trimester, due the Mrs and I are in our early thirties, she has to go through the Oscar test. It will be another cause of worry and anxiety until we see the report confirming that Baby is fine.

We were watching this documentary on National Geographic last night called In The Womb. It was a very detailed and educational piece. However its main content was on how multiple babies i.e. Twins and Triplets are formed. It showed the fetus which looked like a fish, with a tail and eyes on each side of the head, developing into a small baby taking the form of a human. After about an hour, the Mrs decided she has had enough.

Apparently as she watched the development of the fetus, she could not help but to think of Baby. Actually to put it more accurately she was worried about Baby's own development. She was concerned if Baby is developing properly and at the rate that all normal babies should.

I believe she was feeling insecure. After all the last time we scanned was some weeks ago and we will not be due for another 'photo taking' till almost end of July. Maybe it is the mother's protective nature taking its course now.

Since she can't really feel Baby inside her now, she can only rely on the doctor's visits and ultra scans to know for certain that Baby is doing just fine. I believe all this will change once Baby starts to move or kick her during the later stage of her pregnancy.

Sometimes all this seems so surreal to the Mrs. I know she still finds it hard to believe that she is pregnant. At times it all seems like a dream to her and then she had to remind herself that she has not had her menses for months now. Silly as it may be but I do not think feeling this way is unique to only my Mrs. I believe many of the mummies out there feel this way too.

We are keeping our fingers crossed that the Oscar test results will be good. Otherwise it will be another major worry and sleepless nights for weeks till we do the Amniocentesis.

Wish us luck!